I can’t seem to get off my mind lately how much the things tagged as evidence of femininity are evidence of financial well-being in our society. It is bothering me every minute of the day. I would love to stop thinking about it, but every second it is there again.
My grandmothers both had 7 adult children. Evidence of lots of sex. But I can tell you that as poor rural women in the south, they didn’t wear a lot of cosmetics (one didn’t ever wear any at all, or any perfume due to her religious husband.) They didn’t have pretty, feminine hands. The years of summers without shoes meant that they didn’t have pretty feet. They never had a manicure or a pedicure. They worked in the farms they were raised on and then lived on as married women. The years of exposure to elements and work, helping to butcher hogs and cows and deer, the hot work of canning food, and not having money for any luxuries… it doesn’t invoke a life of glamour. They didn’t “exercise” and my paternal grandmother was always taller and plumper than her husband. In terms of home decor, they made do with whatever they could afford, find, make. My maternal grandparents were exceptionally conservative. My mother was taught that you aren’t “supposed to” shave above your knee. I’m not sure what the mysterious consequence was supposed to be, but that is what she said to me as well when I started shaving sometime around the late 1980’s.
(Note: I didn’t believe her. )
Women are hit with messages so regularly about the things they must hit to be considered acceptable. But a lot of the messages we hear now are quite new. My grandmothers weren’t going to get pedicures or get their lip waxed or eyebrows professionally threaded. These were the women who made do at home. They cut their kids hair and rolled it and set it themselves. A $7 bottle of nicer drugstore body lotion would have been as much a luxury to them as a an expensive handbag is to me. I can buy it, but Lord knows I shouldn’t.
When I was a teenager, I wanted to be a cheerleader. I really really did. But the uniforms were particularly expensive at my school and my mother balked at that. She was shocked and angry because when she was in school, the mothers in the community got together to make the cheerleading uniforms. And her mind just couldn’t understand why they would be so expensive. Or why we couldn’t, for example, wear cheap, white canvas shoes instead of the actual athletic shoes that were in the school colors.
There were some local branches of two different southeastern chains of department stores, J.B. White’s being one of them, that had “modeling classes” in our area. Two of my friends participated. It was pretty silly- they had a group of kids that took lessons on walking and turning and did a fashion show a couple times a year. I asked to go as well, but the 45 min drive was just too much and my mother refused for several reasons, one being the cost of the gas to drive. The other, she “needed to be at home” when “dad got home”… not that my father even really cared at all and would have possibly been happier with her out of the house. She was raised in such an ultra-conservative manner that she needed to believe she needed to be present.
A couple of my friends also tried doing pageants. I wanted to do that too. My mother wasn’t wild about that idea and all the work and driving it would represent. It represented work for HER, so I wasn’t allowed to participate. I wasn’t allowed to participate in a number of things because my mother thought it was “too much”– selling girl scout cookies, school fund raisers that would win prizes, etc.
I went to school with a lot of girls my age who didn’t even have what I had. My cousin got a pink room only by default because her parents moved into a house that was already furnished with a room with a pink bedspread and curtains. They weren’t about to pay to get new stuff. Her previous room had been an amalgamation of whatever they could find.
For the 80’s and early 90’s, was woman-ing wrong, and I wanted badly to do a different group of things, but I had no options. I had to go with what I could do and make the best of it.
And I suppose I still am.
The pedicures, the manicures, the hair salons, the waxing, the perfect homes… how far is the needle going to go? Am I woman-ing wrong for doing my own yardwork because I can’t afford to hire a yard service? Am I woman-ing wrong by being financially literate? Am I woman-ing wrong by doing my own hair, my own mani-pedi’s? Am I woman-ing wrong by making practical choices instead of impractical ones? Am I woman-ing wrong if I choose to use Ivory bar soap instead of something like Calypso Lime Explosion Body Gel Mousse– the kind of product that didn’t even exist in most stores in the US until the 90’s? My great-grandmother made her own lye soap. Was she woman-ing wrong?
The best analogy I can use is this: I used to live in a world where women were wore pantyhose- you can easily fake smooth legs in them. The fashion expectation in recent years, Kate Middleton notwithstanding, has turned into the expectation that your legs are always perfect enough to be shown without pantyhose. The expectation is that your legs are always smooth, hair-free and ready to be presented to the public without the slightest covering. It becomes almost implicit that you are expected to be able to afford regular waxing, or at the very least, the type of razors that don’t come 12-to-a-pack for $1.50.
The women you know, the women you see every day, the ones you think of as being “unfeminine” may not be that way by choice. They may not have the resources to have developed into the kind of woman that is seen as “correct” in the current climate. They may not have the resources now to maintain what is demanded as “proof” of playing the game the “right” way. They may have been raised in a very different socioeconomic circumstance. They may live in a circumstance that requires them to have a different approach to womanhood.